K-423 | Kiana Kaslana (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
endyourstory) wrote2023-09-17 08:53 pm
endyourstory) wrote2023-09-17 08:53 pm
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"Hello, you've reached the moon! Congratulations!"
"Hello, you've reached the moon! Congratulations!"
"Hello, you've reached the moon! Congratulations!"
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[ or call him an insect. ]
...she can call him an insect if he wants. He can deal with it.
[ and the rest of kiana's words... she just listens to. at some point during it, she leans, gently plopping them both down onto their sides on the bed without breaking the hug. ]
If you're safe. If any part of you is safe. Then I want to see if it's possible.
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[ she curls up against stelle, whining softly. ]
That'd be nice. I don't know when I'll get to see Mei or Bronya again, so...it's nice to not be alone.
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Even if you can't come with us... I want to see if I can find a way to visit. Sometimes I'll have to do things for the Nameless, but. I want to see you, too.
[ she remembers what she told sirin. stroking at kiana's hair: ]
Both of you.
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but...mei did. even if just for small amounts of time, even if it's not physically, mei did.
and stelle's proved she's just as capable. so... ]
That'd...be really nice. Even just knowing I might see you after we wake up...that's enough, I think. Haha, you should be careful, though! If you keep coming after my heart like this, Mei-senpai might have competition. She gets jealous real easy, you know! Authority of Conquest and all that.
[ it's half a joke, accompanied by a laugh. then, softly: ]
Ich liebe dich.
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[ she doesn't understand the words that leave kiana's mouth. not exactly, at least. but she understands the feeling enough. it doesn't matter if it's "i hate you" or "i love you" or "i want to see you break" or "i want to keep you safe." all that matters is that- ]
I do too.
[ and she buries her head into kiana's hair, kissing lightly at the back of her neck - once, for once, not an overture or a tease. ]
1/3
but for once she manages to restrain herself, just basking in stelle's response. she curls into herself a little, with a quiet sigh. and then - ]
Oh! Sirin has something to say.
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done
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[ sorry, kiana. getting an i love you in a language you don't understand is one thing, and she'll finish putting that together in a second. but for sirin to voice genuine approval of her, after all they've done to one another- ]
-wait, did you just say you love me too?
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But the point is...we really are the same person, even if it doesn't seem like we are sometimes and even if we're calling each other sisters now. We're just the parts of each other we don't express directly, so of course I love you even if I don't say it or express it the way she does.
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and finally, she mumbles: ]
That explains the choking part, huh...
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Eh? What?
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[ she nods. she's finally starting to get it. ]
So both of you like being choked, too. It's like that.
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1/3
2/3
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I feel like I could have done better on that one.
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Wow...
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[ she just... buries her face against kiana's neck. it's a bit embarrassing, after all. ]
You've met Dan Heng and March, right? What do you think about them?
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march is easy, so she starts there. ]
March reminds me a lot of myself when I was younger. Before I was Finality, before Sirin was anything more than just an occasional violent impulse. Someone who's so honest and so bad at thinking before she opens her mouth that she comes off as rude half the time...not particularly gentle, but soft for the most part, but capable of some pretty serious stuff when she needs to be. She'd probably have to be halfway forced into attending school like I was, and she'd definitely be the class clown if she did.
She's waaaaaaay cuter than I was, though.
[ and then she takes a deep breath. ]
Dan Heng...it's hard to think about him as...him. Sirin...well, you saw it, right? She misses Bella. A lot. Dan Heng isn't anything like her at all, but...I guess the expectation was there. And obviously he doesn't like that very much, but then he keeps trying to get close to her - even after everything that happened with you - because of our similarities. You know, being treated like someone else that we are but aren't. So he keeps being a reminder of another person that loved Sirin deeply, but who can't ever come back and who Dan Heng definitely can't ever be.
It's...frustrating, I guess. But complicated - I mean, he's also the reason she didn't just kill the three of you outright. Really, it's something you'd probably have to directly ask her about. She can express it better than I can. Other than that...I like him.
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Don't feel too bad about that. She's pretty much the definition of "cute."
[ it's that second part about dan heng that gives her pause. for a moment, she just... listens. thinks about it. it's rough, considering that sort of loneliness. just as rough as thinking about dan heng's identity being erased. and yet-
and yet when she speaks, there's an odd feeling burning at her throat like bile. an odd, stubborn tone in her voice as she says: ]
Just because of the horns? She can do better than that. [ it's uncharacteristically cruel. she knows that. so why...? ] She doesn't need him for that.
[ maybe kiana can feel the way stelle's grip on her tightens, just a bit. maybe sirin can understand the tone in her voice when she says- ]
Can I stay here tonight?
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- but then she asks if she can stay. it's just one eye that flushes gold, and the level of enthusiasm in the response isn't particularly sirin-like, but it's still clear where it's coming from. ]
Yes!
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I'm glad.
[ and then, nuzzling in and speaking quietly into kiana's neck: ]
...I love you too. Both of you.
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